へんなの

さいきん、かきかきかくことふえた。
おしごとだったり、じぶんのためだったり、ひとのためだったり、とにかくいろいろ。
かくかく。じかんをかけて。あっという間にじかんはすぎていくけど。
かくことがふえるとどうじに、じぶんに対面することがふえた。
じぶんってなんだろう。
No Biology, No Biography! なんていって、CAT WALKくちずさんでたけど。
けっきょくここにぶちあたったか。

うそつき、なきむし、おさけずき。
つよい、よわい、やさしい、いぢわる。
ぶきよう、きよう、おおうそつき、しょうじきもの。
えがお、なきがお、どやがお、むひょうじょう。
いいやつ、てきとう、どりょくか、めんどくさがり。
知的、ぬけてる、さばさばしてる、もじもじしてる。
もてる、もてない、モデル、女優。

ひとにいわれたことば、じぶんで思うことば、ずらりならべてみたけれど、なんじゃこりゃ対照的でへんなのとおもいながら、ふむふむ納得。
”すべては表裏一体？”
いろんなことをおしえてくれた先生の言葉だった。

Photo by Ayako Nakamura, Hair and Make up by Yoko Kuribayashi, Stylist Toshiya Nakata

Happy Hot August!

There are tons of happiness in this August.  Just I am not crazy about Japanese summer…  I love California summer.  But this summer was so special.  As you can see, I have my own web site and thankfully have done some modeling job.  Before end of this special summer, I have so much homework to do!!  (It’s already September…)  Anyway, these photos proof how amazing summer I had;)

My friends had my birthday dinner at amazing hotel restaurant!  Thank you so much!

Beautiful chandelier!

Flower which has same name with me, and my favorite.

Yuri means Lily.

Hey, I’m already full by yummy in my tummy!

My favorite TV series.

Sweet, sweet Bender Bending Rodriguez.

My nail.  I order the colors and the vivid pink star.

Don’t you think it’s so cute chopsticks!? Unbelievably tiny elephant on the each chopsticks.

Ayako Nakamura’s cute hand written illustration!!

My second birthday cake!!  It’s yummy mango!!

Without burger, can’t talk about yuripiso!  With avocado, nothing to talk about yuripiso anymore!

Beautiful light.  My first birthday party at special restaurant.

Cute yellow submarine…oooOps! it’s yellow propeller.

Cute and yummy!!

Yuri wearing Yukata (Kimono style summer cloths which used to wear just like pj.)

Also Yuri.  These photos made my summer a special summer.  Thanks to the below, great artists.

Photo by Ayako Nakamura, Hair and Make up by Yoko Kuribayashi, Stylist Toshiya Nakata

My Chaotic Matter I Left Behind.
Is there anything I left behind? (I know there are tons of…)
I don’t know when did I start cut off my sense?  Beside my dream, there is not much things keep my life longer.  There is nothing I’m crazy about. No favorite baseball team, no favorite musician, no favorite food…  Everyday, wear the cloths I’m not interested in, but I wear only for becoming a better warrior for you.  Everyday see the people and talk about nothing, everyday I eat whatever there is and the foods keeps me working for doing nothing, every single day I smile with emptiness.

I guess I lost my belief; I’m looking for it.  Where did I drop it?? If you find my belief, please let me know. But you don’t need to send my belief to me because I’ll find a brand new one for sure.  Just give me a time, I’m bit a slower than everyone, and if I try to make myself faster then I’ll loose something else beside my belief.

Thank you for your support my friends.
Love you all and without you I don’t notice even I’m missing part of myself,

Yuri

Photo by Ayako Nakamura, Hair and Make up by Yoko Kuribayashi, Stylist Toshiya Nakata